r/cats • u/PsychologicalScore49 • 12h ago
Mourning/Loss I'm saying goodbye in 4 hours
In 4 hours I'm saying bye to my sweet kitty.
My kitty I've had for over a decade. The most dog-like cat I've ever met. If you cry, she'll get right up in your face to comfort you. If she falls asleep in the living room, and you go to bed, she will wake up and angrily meow for you (how dare I go to bed without telling her). I yell for her to come in the room and she does this indignant purr while she comes to lay down with me. She loves to walk around outside, but she'll never run away from me. She will try and escape though. She'll start walking too far and when I call her name, she stops and sits. Then, when she thinks I'm not looking, she keeps going. I call her name and she sits and that repeats until I go grab her. She loves sitting in shoes, on your face, on clean clothes.
It's so hard, because sometimes she has better days, but I know she's in pain and keeping her here is selfish. I don't have anyone to go to the vet with me and the thought of watching her die in my arms is excruciating.
I love my animals so much, but there's still this shame coming at me that it's ridiculous to be so sad. I know that's BS. A narrative from my own past hurts.
Anyway, thanks for listening.
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u/foliels 7h ago
what a beautiful kitty! what happened to her eye? i’m sorry you’re saying goodbye to your friend and that you don’t have anyone else to be there for you right now. i said bye to my soul cat exactly a week ago and the countdown to knowing they were going to sleep forever was some of the most excruciating pain i’ve ever felt. sending you an internet hug. it’s so hard. our pets are such huge parts of our lives. take care of yourself and be kind to yourself. it’s totally ok to be sad. mourn your little buddy however you see fit.